Week One Hundred and Thirty-Six: The Mighty Lemon Drops - "Inside Out" - World Without End

I met my mother for breakfast at La Madeleine at 7:00 am. I enjoyed their Eggs Benedict, while my mother indulged in a Strawberry Crepe. As we were catching up, I explained to my mother that the biggest challenge in my life, at the moment, is nothing more than loneliness. In all honesty, it is something that I have battled for as long as I can remember.

I also believe in that theory that, until one masters a recurring problem in his or her life, the same problem will continue to manifest itself over and over until it is ultimately resolved. I am one of those individuals who has the uncanny ability to feel completely alone even while (actually, especially while) surrounded by a room full of people. I have also often felt completely alone while in long term romantic relationships. Despite knowing this, my natural inclination would typically be to find another romantic relationship on which to embark, in essence, to help me avoid my feelings, not because it is what I really want or even what I am looking for at the moment.  

So being at a crossroads in my life, where I can revert to my past methods (which obviously have not worked for me) or where I can try something new to cure my loneliness, I have decided to face it head on and all alone this time around. I know now that there is not another human being in this world who can take away the loneliness or who can create the happiness and peace of mind for which I have been searching for what feels like an eternity. The loneliness is something that I must take away myself, and the happiness and peace of mind are things that I must create for myself. Interestingly enough, the more time I spend alone, the more glimpses I get of what it is I am hoping to accomplish.

So to celebrate my most recent revelation, I am going to share a little gem by The Mighty Lemon Drops called "Inside Out", as well as another tune that I also like by them called "My Biggest Thrill"...

Waiting for the last train
Standing in the pouring rain
Thinking, wishing, hoping
that you'll never feel the same again

Lying wide awake at night
Sleeping in the morning light
Doing all these things although
I shouldn't be ashamed of them

You can't stop my heart from turning inside out
Try to stop my world from turning inside out

Clutching on the last straw
Seeing things I've never saw
Must be time I fell
Down to a place I didn't know too well

Waiting for the last train
Standing in the pouring rain
Although I'm starting to break this spell
I know I haven't got a hope in Hell

You can't stop my heart from turning inside out
Try to stop my world from turning inside out

When you've called it a day
You've had things your own way
I guess it's fair to say
I'm gonna make you pay

(Didn't get a chance
Wished inside
Holding on until you draw the line
One step forward
Two steps back
And you're gone, gone)

Waiting for the last train
Standing in the pouring rain
Lying wide awake at night
Sleeping in the morning light

You can't stop my heart from turning inside out
 Try to stop my world from turning inside out

You can't stop my heart from turning inside out
  Try and stop my world from turning inside out