Post #714: Buddy Holly - "Maybe Baby" - Single

When I was living my life from a place of scarcity as I mentioned in my previous post, I stuck close to home and didn't get out much in order to save money.  Therefore, one thing I am really trying to work on this year is venturing out of my humble abode a bit more and enjoying the heck out of the rest of my life.  I have challenged myself to attend 2 - 3 events per month, and so far, so good!!  

I made it out to a brand new Dark Wave/New Wave/Synthpop event that is being hosted at a dive bar in Fort Worth at the beginning of this month, and last night, I caught the Garland Civic Theatre's performance of "The Buddy Holly Story."  It was such a delightful show, and the energy from the performers had the audience head-bopping, hand-clapping, and foot-tapping throughout the evening.

I wasn't sure what to expect, but I was beyond excited to learn more about Buddy Holly over a roughly 2 hour period.  I was blown away by how effortlessly the actors/actresses worked their way around the minimal stage set-up.  It was just a lighthearted way to pass the evening despite the tragic ending to the story itself.

It was pointed out to the audience that February 3, 2019, will mark the 60th anniversary of Buddy Holly's passing. In the playbill was a page that summarized Buddy Holly's influence on some prominent musicians.  I really had no idea that so many of the greats were inspired by Buddy Holly, but it increased my appreciation for him all the more.  

I'm looking at New Mexico for my next road trip, so I will definitely have to pass through Lubbock to check out all the Buddy Holly memorabilia.  I'll keep you posted.

In the meantime, go support these lovely performers... it will be the best $18.00 you spend this first part of 2019... I guarantee it!!

I already posted most of my favorite Buddy Holly tunes during Week Ninety-Three, but here are a few more for you today.  In addition to "Maybe Baby," I'll also offer you "Think It Over" and "It Doesn't Matter Anymore"... enjoy!!

Until next time...

XOXOXO

Anastasia

Maybe baby, I'll have you

Maybe baby, you'll be true

Maybe baby, I'll have you for me (all for me)

It's funny honey, you don't care

You never listen, to my prayer

Maybe baby, you will love me some day (someday)

Well, you are the one that makes me glad

And you are the one that makes me sad

When some day, you'll want me

Well, I'll be there, wait and see

Maybe baby, I'll have you

Maybe baby, you'll be true

Maybe baby, I'll have you for me (all for me)

Da-da-ta-da-da-da da-da-da

Da-da-ta-da-da-da da-da-da

Da-da-ta-da-da-da da-da-da

Ahh-ahh-ahh

Well, you are the one that makes me glad

And you are the one that makes me sad

When some day, you'll want me

Well, I'll be there, wait and see

Maybe baby, I'll have you

Maybe baby, you'll be true

Maybe baby, I'll have you for me (all for me)

Maybe baby I'll have you for me (you're for me)

Post #713: New Order - "True Faith" - Substance

So here we are... almost 15 days into the new year... and I realized that I did not share the song that brought me in to 2019!!

In the past, my end-of-the-year reflections have been focused on the previous year's occurrences, but this one is more about how my actions (i.e., getting out of debt once and for all) set me up for a brighter future ahead.

In fact, my Horoscope for December 31, 2018, was so lame and irrelevant that I selected my monthly Horoscope for January to document in my journal instead:

"Going into an ice cream shop or candy store that offers a wide variety of flavors can be mind boggling.  Even if you have certain preferences, the colorful names and scrumptious ingredients could make the choice quite difficult.  Sometimes having too many good things to choose from can make a decision much harder.  That may be the dilemma you are faced with this month as you strive to make an important decision about your future.  But keep it real and recognize that this is a really good 'problem' to have.  If you look at it that way, it will be easier to come to the very best decision."

You better believe that I would take this problem of too many choices any day of the week over the scarcity mindset in which I have lived the majority of my life!!

Regardless, the song that welcomed me in to 2019 was "True Faith" by New Order.  Even though the songwriter, Bernard Sumner, confirmed that this song is about drug dependency, one of my favorite things to do when I am pondering the meaning of a song is to browse through the comments on www.songmeanings.com to see if others have innovative thoughts about the lyrics.  I am rarely disappointed as was the case when I came across the following interpretations:

"i can only interpret this song in a very personal manner. after a very bad childhood i feel extraordinary because i survived and my life now depends on MY day to day life (the morning sun) instead of what happened to me in the past.

for me it is a song of great hope."

and

"As much as anything, to me, this song is about growing up and trading away dreams for short-term happiness."

I did that... I grew up and traded so many dreams... I will never fall victim to that ever again!!!

Until next time...

XOXOXO
Anastasia

I feel so extraordinary

Something's got a hold on me

I get this feeling I'm in motion

A sudden sense of liberty

I don't care 'cause I'm not there

And I don't care if I'm here tomorrow

Again and again I've taken too much

Of the things that cost you too much

I used to think that the day would never come

I'd see delight in the shade of the morning sun

My morning sun is the drug that brings me near

To the childhood I lost, replaced by fear

I used to think that the day would never come

That my life would depend on the morning sun

When I was a very small boy

Very small boys talked to me

Now that we've grown up together

They're afraid of what they see

That's the price that we all pay

And the value of destiny comes to nothing

I can't tell you where we're going

I guess there was just no way of knowing

I used to think that the day would never come

I'd see delight in the shade of the morning sun

My morning sun is the drug that brings me near

To the childhood I lost, replaced by fear

I used to think that the day would never come

That my life would depend on the morning sun

I feel so extraordinary

Something's got a hold on me

I get this feeling I'm in motion

A sudden sense of liberty

The chances are we've gone too far

You took my time and you took my money

Now I fear you've left me standing

In a world that's so demanding

I used to think that the day would never come

I'd see delight in the shade of the morning sun

My morning sun is the drug that brings me near

To the childhood I lost, replaced by fear

I used to think that the day would never come

That my life would depend on the morning sun

I used to think that the day would never come

I'd see delight in the shade of the morning sun

My morning sun is the drug that brings me near

To the childhood I lost, replaced by fear

I used to think that the day would never come

That my life would depend on the morning sun

Post #712: R.E.M. - "So. Central Rain (I'm Sorry)" - Reckoning

On December 27, 2018, I officially became free of all debt! As I checked all of my accounts and saw a balance of $0 and as I saw a brand new screen regarding my car loan that read "paid off," I expected to be far more excited than I was.  Instead, I sat very still and breathed one of the deepest breaths that I have taken in decades, all the while wondering why in the world I wasn't jumping up and down with ecstatic joy. However, I will share that it did feel like someone took a Mr. Clean Magic Eraser sponge and made me all shiny inside.

I needed groceries, so I headed up to my beloved Target, and I decided that, at the bare minimum, I should purchase a small token to commemorate my debt-free existence. As I walked by the table of discounted Christmas candy, I picked up a box of chocolate covered cherries and smiled. Every year for Christmas, my paternal grandparents would give me an envelope full of money and a box of chocolate covered cherries. Of course, the money was nice, but it was never really about the money for me; it was about savoring the sweetness of those delicious cherries. As I placed the discounted box into my cart, it finally hit me like a ton of bricks: IT WAS NEVER ABOUT THE DEBT; IT WAS ABOUT FINALLY FORGIVING MYSELF FOR THE MISTAKES OF MY PAST...

You see, I could have paid off my debts months ago if I had just borrowed from my savings account and put it back little-by-little, but I didn't.  I very systematically and methodically planned for my debt-free date to be exactly when I needed it to be.  Did I know it was about self-forgiveness this whole time?? Maybe deep, deep down I did; however, it wasn't until that whole chocolate covered cherry incident that I truly realized what had ultimately happened just an hour or so earlier. I essentially said to myself that I was sorry and really, really meant it!!

Now don't get me wrong; the fact that every penny I make from this point forward will be mine all mine is beyond splendid, but finally forgiving myself is priceless!!

This is all very new to me, and I'm still trying to fully wrap my mind around it all.  As I had mentioned before on numerous occasions, I have spent the majority of my adult life drowning in debt, so I am truly anxious to see where my new financial freedom might take me.  At the very least, I hope to check in with you far more frequently than I did this past year.

Until next time...

XOXOXO
Anastasia

Did you never call? I waited for your call

These rivers of suggestion are driving me away

The trees will bend, the cities wash away

The city on the river there is a girl without a dream

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry

Eastern to Mountain, third party call, the lines are down

The wise man built his words upon the rocks

But I'm not bound to follow suit

The trees will bend, the conversation's dimmed

Go build yourself another home, this choice isn't mine

I'm sorry, I'm sorry

Did you never call? I waited for your call

These rivers of suggestion are driving me away

The ocean sang, the conversation's dimmed

Go build yourself another dream, this choice isn't mine

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry