I've been reading a deeply profound book called "Soul Wounds" by Dr. Candice Creasman.
It's one of those experiences where I can hardly remember what I've just read because instead I feel every word so intensely in the depths of my being. I definitely intend to use it as a road map for future healing, but at the moment, it is shedding light upon all the places where I am broken.
Yes, I know, we are all broken in our own special ways. However, what I have come to realize is that one of the areas in which I am severely broken is relationships. I had always imagined that once I got to this point in my life where I have this exact level of financial well-being, I would be ready to tackle the dating world again. It just seemed like the next natural progression. On the contrary, I have instead become so overly protective of my new status, and I am terrified to introduce anyone into the equation for fear that he will ruin it for me. Of course, that is a direct result of a soul wound and my natural inclination to steer clear of what I perceive as suffering. You see, what I've really come to realize is that if past relationships have been overall nurturing and validating experiences for an individual, then inviting another into one's life is far more comfortable. If relationships have created great amounts of pain, then there will naturally be a hesitation and fear to embark upon another one... no matter how far along you have come in life.
I find myself at a crossroads, and this is where I truly see the beauty of living - this is where we get to accept and own our choices. I'm not sure which one I will make... working on the hesitations and fears in order to once again be part of a couple or acknowledging my situation for what it is and living my best life as a single person. What I do know is that what's right for me may not be right for you, and what you would choose may not be what I ultimately choose. Regardless, I love that we each get to write our own stories, and we can even change them mid-chapter if needed.
So this one goes out to all you beautiful broken souls... may you make choices that will ultimately allow you to write a masterpiece!!!
Until next time...
XOXOXO
Anastasia
It's one of those experiences where I can hardly remember what I've just read because instead I feel every word so intensely in the depths of my being. I definitely intend to use it as a road map for future healing, but at the moment, it is shedding light upon all the places where I am broken.
Yes, I know, we are all broken in our own special ways. However, what I have come to realize is that one of the areas in which I am severely broken is relationships. I had always imagined that once I got to this point in my life where I have this exact level of financial well-being, I would be ready to tackle the dating world again. It just seemed like the next natural progression. On the contrary, I have instead become so overly protective of my new status, and I am terrified to introduce anyone into the equation for fear that he will ruin it for me. Of course, that is a direct result of a soul wound and my natural inclination to steer clear of what I perceive as suffering. You see, what I've really come to realize is that if past relationships have been overall nurturing and validating experiences for an individual, then inviting another into one's life is far more comfortable. If relationships have created great amounts of pain, then there will naturally be a hesitation and fear to embark upon another one... no matter how far along you have come in life.
I find myself at a crossroads, and this is where I truly see the beauty of living - this is where we get to accept and own our choices. I'm not sure which one I will make... working on the hesitations and fears in order to once again be part of a couple or acknowledging my situation for what it is and living my best life as a single person. What I do know is that what's right for me may not be right for you, and what you would choose may not be what I ultimately choose. Regardless, I love that we each get to write our own stories, and we can even change them mid-chapter if needed.
So this one goes out to all you beautiful broken souls... may you make choices that will ultimately allow you to write a masterpiece!!!
Until next time...
XOXOXO
Anastasia
I like that you're broken
Broken like me
Maybe that makes me a fool
I like that you're lonely
Lonely like me
I could be lonely with you
I met you late night, at a party
Some trust fund baby's Brooklyn loft
By the bathroom, you said let's talk
But my confidence is wearing off
These aren't my people
These aren't my friends
She grabbed my face and that's when she said
I like that you're broken
Broken like me
Maybe that makes me a fool
I like that you're lonely
Lonely like me
I could be lonely with you
There's something tragic, but almost pure
Think I could love you, but I'm not sure
There's something wholesome, there's something sweet
Tucked in your eyes that I'd love to meet
These aren't my people
These aren't my friends
She grabbed my face and that's when she said
I like that you're broken
Broken like me
Maybe that makes me a fool
I like that you're lonely
Lonely like me
I could be lonely with you
Life is not a love song that we like
We're all broken pieces floating by
Life is not a love song, we can try
To fix our broken pieces one at a time
I like that you're broken
Broken like me
Maybe that makes me a fool
I like that you're lonely
Lonely like me
I could be lonely with you
I like that you're broken
Broken like me
Maybe that makes me a fool
I like that you're lonely
Lonely like me
I could be lonely with you
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